Saying Goodbye
Saying Goodbye
In less than a month, I will be a college graduate. After 4 and a half years, going through both community college and Plymouth State, I will have a B.A. in English and be unleashed onto the world. Most people when in my position are excited, but I can’t help but feel scared at what the future may hold.
My two years here at Plymouth State has been some of the best of my life. I have met amazing people that I have the honor of calling my friends, taken interesting and compelling classes, and have made memories that I will cherish for years.
College is a defining time period and I can wholeheartedly say that it has been the best time of my life. I have become a better person over my time here. While it has been incredibly stressful, it has been worth it. But while I am happy to have gone here, I am honestly sad to say goodbye, and that I wish I didn’t have to leave.
The future is uncertain. The obvious move is to get a job, maybe start a family, and overall become a functional member of society. But it’s not so straightforward as it seemed just a short while ago. A job in my field is not guaranteed. And even though I’m 23, I feel as though I’m a child masquerading as an adult. I’m someone who is barely able to fend for myself, god forbid a child. It’s as though I’m being thrust into a role that I’m not prepared for.
But I want to be excited! I want to go boldly into the unknown. But instead of a bright future, it’s like I’m being shoved into a black hole. I’m afraid that when I am on my own I’ll falter and fall apart. If I had one wish, I would see five years into the future to see how my life will turn out. This fear comes from my history of depression, and the year I lost to it when I graduated high school. Without the safety net of college, the steadiness of my schedule, and the support of my friends, I am afraid it will happen again.
This time in my life is supposed to be exciting, but it is anything but. It will come anyway, as all things do, but when I say my tearful goodbyes to those I’ve grown close too, it will mostly be out of true sadness rather than bittersweet joy. Is that wrong of me? Am I an outlier when it comes to my feelings? Objectively I know that I’m not, but when those around me are excitedly talking about the future, I cannot relate.
In a little over three weeks I will walk out of my last class at PSU and drive away. In May I will walk to officially get my diploma and then I will leave PSU behind me. Maybe by then my feelings will change and the future will be an exciting prospect. I can only have faith that it will. Until then, the feelings of inexplicable loss will simply have to be enough.
Kelsey Davis
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